Friday, December 19, 2008
This morning before school, I said, "Im gonna wave to you!" Joseph
says, "Im not waving back".
I said, "oh real nice."
he said he's not allowed. I said "fine." I said "Then I'm jumping up and down and waving both arms and yelling, HI BEAR!! ITS MOMMY!!" he laughed.
So after all of the other grades and the choir sing, its time for the 3rd graders. Joey Bear gets on stage and spots me right away. I see his dimple, so I think he's smiling, but his lips are pursed. He is trying his hardest not to smile. He keeps sneaking a glance at me, then smirks, and looks away as quick as he can. I see him whispering to his friend next to him on stage, then his friend looks at me and smiles and they laugh.
I think, what!? Am I making a goofy grin? Am I embarrassing
him? But I dont care. I'm grinning ear to ear, just happy to see him
in his school environment, happy, relaxed.
Reminds me how lucky I am.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Today my 8 year old came home from school (3rd grade) and asked me if Santa was really real.
We've been through this before, previous christmas seasons, the older kids on the bus always try to tell the younger kids, that there is no Santa. He's asked me every year. And every year, I have said the same thing. What do you believe? He always said, he believes because every christmas, Santa brings him all kinds of toys. So, I went with that, and was so glad he was content.
This year has been different. He has asked a few times. And today, he was asking me in whisper. My 4 year old would come into the room and of course, big brother being kind, would whisper, "tell me later". I was hoping he'd forget about it. Then, he'd ask again. Of course, little brother is never far away. At 8 oclock, Joseph asks again. He says, will you tell me at bedtime? I try to avoid it, and say, if you want to talk now, lets go talk, but not at bedtime. ( I knew the cartoons were his main priority) I figured, with less than 1/2 hour before bedtime, he'll stop asking.
Of course, when I was tucking him in, he says, "Can you tell me the truth about Santa now?" Man, my heart was breaking. I think as kids get older, to encourage the "santa" stories isnt exactly good for the kids. Yes, I want him to keep believing in magic. I would love it if he kept that happy part forever. But I know in reality, that other kids won't let that happen. And I just dont want him to be the last to know. He was telling me how a bunch of his friends think its your mom and dad. but some still believe.
I was actually crying, a lot, as I was trying to explain. I said, well baby, Santa is really Mommy and Daddy.
I just dont know why I was crying so much. My husband agreed that it was probably time for him to know. And he was there for part of it, but I asked him to leave because it was making me more emotional. So, not only did I ruin christmas for him, but I probably traumatized him with my crying.
Did I do the right thing? When he used the word "truth" a couple times, I felt like I had to be honest. I dont know. all I know is I feel like I just crushed a piece of his childhood. And he'll never get that back. My baby.
I did try to explain to him that I was sad because I know he's growing up, and Im his mommy, and I love him so much.
I knew the day would come eventually. And I'm dreading him asking about the tooth fairy, easter bunny, and all that good stuff. So Sad.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Today my cousin Johnny from NY, NY is visiting! I havent seen him since early summer, so its nice to have him over. Angie, another cousin, and her two kids will be visiting today too. We'll have a full house, and it'll be so nice!
Friday, October 10, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
I had to put a new post up fast! The one on my laser burned face was disturbing, lol.
So does anyone remember that old commercial? An older woman is on camera and she puts her hands out, and says, "they call the age spots, I call them ugly!"
I can't believe summer vacation is already over! Don't get me wrong, its time for a change. Time for more structure for both the kids and myself. But wow! I used to think summers break lasted forever.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Friday, August 1, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Monday, July 7, 2008
The next day my little one's friend came over for a visit. They are so silly. Middle of summer, but anytime is perfect to be a superhero right? My son Nicolas is in the Hulk costume.
The last group of snapshots are from a 4th of July party we go to every year. Volleyball, Cornhole, and good times. Thats my husband and sons playing cornhole. My Joey and Nicolas looking cute as ever. And who can pass up 4th of July colored candy corn? On your teeth?
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Sunday, June 22, 2008
I received this award from one of my best friends, Real life friend too! Thanks Donna...
The original idea was created by www.memoirsofamommyblog.com whose adorable son Noah recieved a heart transplant. How amazing is life? I believe organ donation is an amazing thing. I've always been sure to be a potential donor since i first started driving. Please think of what organ donation means to frightened and optionless families. I am so in awe of medical science and think if there is anything I could do, this is the least I could do.
Memoirsofamommy.com says The rules of this award are: SHARE THE LOVE!!! Share this award with all those blogs out there that you love. All the people who make you smile. All those that make you laugh. All those that make your day. All those that leave uplifting comments on your blog. **All I ask, is that you include a link to this post with the award and ask your recipient to do the same**
Here are some blogs that make me smile and enjoy the moment... and forgive me for my lack of blogging knowledge. I dont know how to put a name, which can be clicked on and sent directly to their blog...boy, I am embarrassed!!!
So, Donna, help me out. Im getting too old I guess. ..
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Monday, May 26, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Friday, May 16, 2008
I will be heading to Vegas soon, and I can't wait!!! I cannot wait, I am so excited! a few days of no work, no kids(sorry babies, I still love you!), no rules! Just 4 days and nights where I can swim, gamble, drink, sleep, and eat whenever, wherever, how much I want. I love you Las Vegas!
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Went to a baseball game this weekend, took the hubby and kids. We had a really good time. It rained all day long, but we took a gamble and went to the baseball field, almost as a "whatever". We figure with rain on and off all day, then heavy rain shortly before the game started we'd be out of luck. But what do we have to lose right? Tickets are alreay paid for. Hopes are up.