Saturday, July 26, 2008

trying to understand.

All I seem to do are picture posts.  So much easier, and a picture is worth a thousand words right?  Sometimes I wish I could write, or type more of what goes on in me.  Its not easy.  I have my serious ups and downs, and now is a down.  so I have the TIME to document it.  but no desire really.  How common is this?  Do most women go through sadness and depression?

Do you ever feel like not moving?  I dont mean not leaving the house.  I mean, not wanting to load a dishwasher.  Not wanting to wash clothes.  Not wanting to get up to pee.  Just like every move would take every bit of life out of you.  I hate it.  Its not fair to my kids.  Not fair to the husband.  And really, I wouldnt treat anyone as badly as I treat myself.  I am my own worst enemy.  Have you ever thought, my husband, my kids, deserve more than me?  


Sharpie said...

Oh honey - I know what you mean. Don't be so hard on yourself. Love yourself and the rest comes one step at a time!

Donna said...

You are a beautiful,wonderful person.

We all have our ups and downs, some worse than others, but YOU can overcome it.

Learning to love ourselves is a big thing, one that if we do then things wouldn't be so hard, especially as a women. But loving ourselves is SO HARD.

Love ya.
Come hang out here this week, then you'll feel better;)

L said...

Thanks guys, I always debate journaling the bad/sad. But in the end, I do want this to be my reality. So I can look back and see what things were really like.